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Have you ever thought life was going one direction until it throws you a gigantic curve ball?

That's kind of how I'm feeling right about now.

I had sinus surgery scheduled for August 10th, right before going back to school. I haven't been experiencing any sinus difficulties, but it's always good for a CFer to get his or her sinuses washed out and opened up so that the nasal passageway isn't harboring bacteria that then goes back into the lungs. I haven't had a sinus surgery in a very long time, so my doctor advised me to have it done this summer. Originally, I was told recovery time for the surgery would be between one and two days. I thought having the surgery then would be perfectly fine because I would be feeling good after a few days. I could also finish my summer school class and finish working at the speech pathology clinic without the surgery getting in the way. However, yesterday, I was told the extent of the surgery required for my sinuses. Let me tell you, it's not a one to two day recovery type of procedure! The doctor told me it is going to take a good three weeks to be feeling "normal." He told me I'm going to struggle breathing the first week because I can only breathe through my mouth. After that week, I can slowly begin to add daily activities into life, but I can't lift anything over fifteen pounds for three weeks.

So, I had to move the surgery up to July 18th. Unfortunately, I also had to drop the summer school class that I was taking. I feel pretty overwhelmed right now because everything seems to be happening so fast. I feel like I can't see straight, I'm spinning in so many circles. I was supposed to be on IV antibiotics for a week before the surgery. I obviously don't have a week's time for IVs, so I will begin them on Monday. My surgery is at 7:00 am, so I have to be at the hospital around 5 am, which means waking up around 3:00 or 3:30 so I can do a breathing treatment. I may or may not be doing a bronchoscopy in addition to the sinus surgery. (I'll find out on Monday). My summer has turned completely upside down, honestly.

I am glad to get this surgery over with. Although this is NOT how I envisioned my summer, I trust that my Father in Heaven knows the road ahead of me, and I am striving to follow His leading.  I am overwhelmed and scared, honestly, but I am grasping onto my Father's hands. Please be praying for the doctors and anesthesiologists as I go into this surgery on Wednesday. As well, please pray for my body as I'm healing. I used to bounce back well from surgeries, but my body doesn't seem to come back as well as it used to. Please pray for my family because surgeries and IVs are difficult on my whole family, not just me. Thank you so so much.

I knew it would be a crazy summer, but I definitely wasn't expecting this! However, I'm ready to conquer this next challenge, with my God, friends, and family by my side.


  1. I feel you on the sinus surgery! I'm praying for you. Everything is gonna be okay :) God promises!


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