Sunday, December 30, 2012

New Year's Resolutions

Is it really almost 2013?! How crazy is that? As I get older, time seems to fly faster and faster. Life is short, shorter than we would like to believe. Every day, I strive to live like it is my last day, because in all honesty, none of us know when we are going to die. I want to make a difference with whatever time God gives me on earth.

Usually, I don't make New Year's Resolutions. I feel like the majority of people make these resolutions just to go and break them within the month. This year, however, I feel the need to write some "resolutions" on my blog. They are not necessarily what you would consider normal "resolutions", like losing weight or exercising more, but they are more ideas of how to make my 2013 a memorable, inspirational year. I hope you will hold me to these resolutions and keep me accountable!

1. Start each day with a meaningful quiet time with the Lord.

2. Make the most of every opportunity given to me.

3. Spread the love of Jesus through everything I do.

4. Continue to give 110% to everything I do.

5. Gain experience in speech pathology.

6. Maintain my good grades.

7. Read at least 1 book a month for fun.

8. Socialize more to build relationships.

9. Be kind to everyone.

10. Don't be judgmental.

11. Speak the truth, seasoned with grace.

12. Follow the Spirit's prompting.

13. Run to expand lung capacity.

14.  Learn that it's okay to spend money/time on myself but also continue to enjoy spending time, energy and money on others.

15. Random acts of kindness

16. Have a selfless attitude.

17. Give glory to God in everything.

18. Manage my health care with more independence.

19. Make 2013 a year to remember.

20. Be filled with faith, hope, and love.

Saturday, December 29, 2012

Scripture of the day

"Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, "What shall we eat?" or "What shall we drink?" or "What shall we wear?" For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. "Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. (Matthew 6:25-34 ESV)

This is the Word of The Lord. Thanks be.to Him!

Monday, December 24, 2012

Christmas traditions

Happy Christmas Eve! It's hard to believe another year has come and gone, and today is already December 24. I love Christmastime so much, not only because it reminds me of how great my God is and how relatable Jesus Christ is, but also because of the many traditions that surround the holidays. Every family celebrates the season differently. Here's a list of my favorite traditions:

1. We celebrate every Christmas in New Braunfels with my mom's family.

2. We go to my grandparents' church for a Christmas Eve service, and afterwards we eat pizza for dinner from Pizza Hut.

3. All the stockings are hung by the chimney with care.

4. Sports games are always on TV.

5. The cookies people bring to Grammy and Paw-Paw's house are the same every single year.

6. My family decorates our Christmas tree at home shortly after Thanksgiving, carefully picking out what ornaments to put on the tree.

7. My family participates in a caroling party at a friend's house, bringing Christmas cheer to the neighborhood.

8. I love picking out perfect gifts for friends and family.

9. We take a huge family picture on Christmas Day so that we can see the changes in our family.

10. We have a big Christmas meal, loving being together and celebrating the birth of Christ.

Merry Christmas everyone! I pray you have a wonderful time with family and friends, remembering the gift of salvation Christ blessed us with.

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

All I want for Christmas

All I want for Christmas is to be healthy. And I mean really healthy. I mean able to run, jump, and dance kind of healthy. I mean being able to eat whatever I want, whenever I want. I mean not having to worry about lung function, bone density, caloric intake, blood sugars, vitamin levels, liver and kidney function, and IV antibiotic scheduling. My head is swimming with so many issues and problems right now, it's a bit overwhelming.

Maybe soon, my Christmas wish will come true. After all, researchers are discovering more and more about CF and the mutations that cause it, However, I don't think I'll get to start on any ground breaking medication soon. Nor do I think I will be free from health worries for a very long time. And you know what? As much as I would love to be rid of the hassle of dealing with cystic fibrosis, I wouldn't trade the life I have right now for anything. I have an incredibly supportive, loving family. I have terrific friends and mentors. I am completely and totally in love with Jesus Christ and cannot imagine life without His saving grace. I have 2 godly church families. I love being a student at Baylor (sic em bears) and get excited when I think about learning and attending classes. I have a strong, independent, determined spunk that God has blessed me with as well as a capable mind and body. What more could a girl want?

I may not get my Christmas wish this year, and I may never get to see this wish fulfilled. But I'm okay with that. Sure, it'd be nice to be normal. And yeah, I get sick and tired of being sick and tired. Yet God will not leave me nor forsake me. I trust Him with my life, my desires, my everything. He has given me the best gift I could ever ask for-salvation through Jesus. Everything else is fleeting compared to that, even my Christmas wish of healing.

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

CF check up

Today, I had a CF clinic visit. These clinic appointments are always very long, very slow, and very unpredictable. They usually last about 2-2 1/2 hours, depending on how on time the nurse, dietician, respiratory therapists, and doctor are running. Here's a summary of my appointment:

Height: 62.5 inches
Weight: 95 pounds
PFTs: 58%
IVs: starting January 5th
Culturing: achromobacter, MRSA, and mycobacterium
My "homework": gain more weight, keep up with treatments, keep up with exercise, keep doing what I'm doing

Overall, it was a decent appointment. Here's to fighting CF, one step at a time!

Monday, December 17, 2012

Confession time

Okay, I have a confession to make.


I'm really not good at checking my blood sugar and keeping up with my Cystic Fibrosis Related Diabetes.

I have a really good perception of what my blood sugars are doing and can easily tell when they are high or low. I also know the typical pattern my blood sugars take.  And even though it doesn't take that long to check my levels, it's one more thing to think about. One more thing to keep track of. One more thing to have to remember. I have a diabetes appointment today, and honestly, I don't even know when the last time I checked my sugars at a normal time was (except for yesterday because I was trying to get numbers in my machine).When I can tell so easily when I'm low or high, it's no motivation to say that my health is suffering from not having those numbers, because it's not. It's also no motivation to say that the doctor could help me better if he had the data, because he really doesn't know how to help my CFRD. Because there's so little research about it, I've tried pretty much every diabetes medicine out there without much success. Now, I do a little bit of insulin in the morning, but my sugars are far from perfect.

It's no excuse that I'm not more on top of my CFRD. I know that it should become more of a priority. It's just so hard to focus on it when I am so bogged down with other more important stuff related to my health, like fitting in breathing treatments, gaining weight, taking my pills, and doing IV antibiotics. I'm not excited to go to my appointment this morning because I feel like it's a giant waste of time, but I have to have an endocrinologist, so I must go to the appointment. I don't know what the answer is to fixing my diabetes problem or how to make CFRD a bigger part of my health concerns, but I know I've got to get better about checking my sugars.

Friday, December 14, 2012

Connecticut

There have been too many shootings in this nation. How can a person go out and kill 27 people, including many precious, innocent children? The shooting that happened in Connecticut today makes me sick to my stomach. How can someone consciously choose to take a little one's life, when the child could have many happy years to live? How can you take a child's innocence so quickly? How can you formulate a plan to do such insurmountable horrors? Parents should never have to lose their children, especially not this way. Since the Virginia Tech shooting in 2007, shootings have become almost chronic. Something needs to be done in this country so that these shootings do not happen anymore. We need a change; innocent people should not lose their lives to these insane actions.

My prayers go out to the victims of the Connecticut school shooting. May God give them divine comfort in this difficult time.

Monday, December 10, 2012

"Furious"

I have been so blessed by this song recently. Every time it plays on my iPhone, I stop what I'm doing to sing praises to Jesus. I can't help it- my heart overflows with joy and thankfulness! Below are the lyrics as well as a link to the YouTube video. Take a moment to soak in this song and praise our good, majestic, amazing Father.

Nothing can tear us from
The grip of His mighty love
We’ve only glimpsed, His vast affection
Heard whispers of, His heart and passion
It’s pouring down…


His love is deep, His love is wide
And it covers us
His love is fierce, His love is strong
It's furious
His love is sweet, His love is wild
And it's waking hearts to life

The Father loves and sends His son
The Son lays down His life for all
He lavishes His love upon us
He calls us now, His sons and daughters
He’s reaching out…

… and its waking hearts to life
He is waking hearts to life
He is waking hearts to life

Your love is deep, Your love is wide
And it covers us
Your love is fierce, Your love is strong
It's furious
Your love is sweet, Your love is wild
And it's waking hearts to life

--"Furious" by Jeremy Riddle

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=_607cloIEv0

Friday, December 7, 2012

Study study study

This past week has been a mass of chaotic studying, reading, and stress relieving. It's that time of year that everyone dreads all semester but also looks forward to seeing the end result--finals week. Needless to say, my brain has been working in overtime. I am the kind of person that plans a VERY detailed study schedule and sticks to it as much as possible. I'm also the kind of person who is done studying for the day by 8pm at the latest so I can let my brain rest for the night by watching TV or reading a book for fun. Studying for me is all about time-management and practical planning. After all, if you don't know the information the night before a big test, cramming and staying up until the wee hours of the morning will not help you remember the information on the test. Instead, I study steadily throughout the year, so once finals season comes around, I just have to review what I know. On my schedule, I wrote down the times I will study, exercise, eat meals, and socialize for the rest of the semester. That way, I don't get lost in the mess of finals.

I have now taken two finals and have three to go--one Saturday and two Tuesday. Then, I will be going home for the break! The song, "I'll be home for Christmas" has new meaning after going away to college. I am not constantly surrounded by my family while at Baylor. While I have made great friends who I consider my "Baylor/Waco family", Christmas is a special time because I get to be with all of my family in one place at the same time for a whole month. I am excited for the Christmas season, celebrating my Savior's birth with my wonderful family. I just have to get through these last three finals!

Best of luck to everyone taking finals this week and next. May you do your best and show how much you've learned this semester!

"An investment in knowledge pays the best interest." --Benjamin Franklin

Saturday, December 1, 2012

He's teaching me

This may come as a shock to you (note the sarcasm), but I tend to be very opinionated about everything from what's right and wrong to judging the character of my peers. I have a very black and white personality. There's very little wiggle room for discussion for important mattes in my mind. This is both a blessing and a hindrance to my walk with Christ. Obviously, it's a blessing because I have a firm moral sense of right and wrong. I'm quick to point out my failings because I know in my gut when I mess up. Therefore, I am good at catching myself before I do something I will regret later on. However, I am also quick to point out when other people make mistakes. I do not have the spiritual gift of mercy, so too often I judge people based on my perception of them. I focus on a person's mistakes rather than seeing him or her as God sees him or her--clean, pure, and forgiven (if that person loves the Lord and has accepted Christ as Savior). Who am I to judge a person's heart and decide if he or she really loves Jesus? That is not up to me. A person's past actions do not necessarily determine his or her heart's desires. God has been teaching me this year how to use my gift of discernment properly without abusing it and judging others. Although I'm far from understanding how to be merciful or, let's be honest, how to love everyone I come in contact with, I pray that I'm growing in my relationship with Christ on a daily basis and that His presence is showcased to the world through my life.