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Sunny Days and Random Thoughts

The weather has been such a blessing these last few days, hasn't it? The sun has been shining, casting its ever radiant streaks of light and warmth in all directions, covering every inch of the Waco community. The sky reflects an incredibly bright blue, a color that could never be recreated with paints, no matter how hard you tried. The green grass and trees burst of springtime, with flowers and life blossoming everywhere, not to mention the many bluebonnets sprinkled across the side of the road. It's truly amazing.

What's even more amazing is the fact that Monday and Tuesday, we experienced a heavy thunder storm unlike any other I have ever experienced. The thunder literally sounded like it was right outside my window. We were under a tornado watch, a hail advisory, and a flash flood with a flood warning. Since I'm on the fourth floor of my dorm, I was a little concerned about the whole tornado thing...I have NO idea what I would do if a tornado all of a sudden struck Baylor campus! Anyway, the storm was bad. Much of Waco was flooded, 5th street was literally a river (so people walking to class got to wade through the current of water) and the SUB's (our student building) basement flooded with 2 inches or more of water. There have been trucks outside working on the SUB for the past week. Poor basement!

The difference between Monday and this weekend is just astounding. It reminds me of the way of life. Life has its ups and downs, as everyone knows. When I go through a hard time, I can often get caught up in the horribleness of the situation. If I'm not careful, I start questioning God, wondering where He is in the midst of such an awful storm. I often think, "Why am I going through such a storm?" or, "I can't imagine it getting any worse," or, "God, just take this pain away!" But here's what I've come to realize. In the darkest of times, God never leaves us. It may be hard to see Him or hear Him, but He is still there. And after the storm, we come out so much stronger, full of hope and joy. We can help others who are struggling, providing support and love and encouragement to them because we've been through a similar storm. On the other side of the storm is a beautiful ray of Hope, Love and Healing, and His name is Jesus. We can see the glory of God more clearly after going through a difficult time because we put our faith fully in Him, learning to trust Him with our very lives. We cannot escape sin, nor can we escape the reality that there will be hard times on earth. However, we can put our faith in the fact that God remains with us through the tough moments as well as the joyous times. What an encouraging thought!

We sang this song in church this morning, and I thought it was fitting. It's"Beautiful" by Phil Wickham. Read it as a praise to the God Most High, who will never leave you and will get you through the storm!

I see Your face in every sunrise
The colors of the morning are inside Your eyes
The world awakens in the light of the day
I look up to the sky and say
You’re beautiful

I see Your power in the moonlit night
Where planets are in motion and galaxies are bright
We are amazed in the light of the stars
It’s all proclaiming who You are
You’re beautiful, You're beautiful

I see you there hanging on a tree
You bled and then you died and then you rose again for me
Now you are sitting on Your heavenly throne
Soon we will be coming home
You’re beautiful, you're beautiful

When we arrive at eternity’s shore
Where death is just a memory and tears are no more
We’ll enter in as the wedding bells ring
Your bride will come together and we’ll sing
You’re beautiful, You're beautiful, You're beautiful

I see Your face, You're beautiful, You're beautiful, You're beautiful
I see Your face, You're beautiful, You're beautiful, You're beautiful
I see Your face, I see Your face
I see Your face, You’re beautiful, You’re beautiful, You’re beautiful


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