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Doctor Day

PFTs-60%!!! Finally back in the 69s club, woo!
Weight/appetite-Good (Two good weight checks in a row..what is this?)
Symptoms-increased cough and sputum production
Plan of Action- oral Bactrim for 2 weeks

Today, I went to my regular CF check-up. I am proud to say that my PFTs were slightly improved, my weight was stable, and Dr. Fullmer told me that I should write a how-to book on managing CF in college. Honestly, CF appointments always make me a little anxious. I detest being "judged" on my "performance" based on a set of numbers I do not have full control over. Maybe that's the control freak in me coming out, I don't know. I do all I can to stay healthy, but sometimes it's just not enough. When I have a bad report, I feel disappointed in myself, almost like there was something I should have/could have done better, even though I know that's not the case. CF is so unpredictable, as well! I could be feeling great and have awful lung function tests, or I could be feeling horribly sick and have really high numbers on the PFTs. Who knows? CF is a frustrating disease, especially at appointments when you have to explain all aspects of your bodily function repeatedly to everyone who comes in the room. 

However, this appointment went much better than I was expecting. I am SO thankful for all of my wonderful friends and family who were praying for me throughout the day. I don't know how I would manage CF without their prayers, love, and encouragement! 


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