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In recent years, my body has not responded to lung infections as well as it used to. I get low-grade fevers, aches, and have difficulty breathing. It's like I'm taking a beating! Unfortunately, after being on steroids for five days, all the junk in my lungs has been stirred up. Since Thursday, I've been flat out exhausted, and my cough has gotten significantly worse. And now today, I have a slight fever. Boooo. Because I'm already on oral antibiotics and the bacteria I grow is resistant to almost every drug available, I'll be starting IVs this coming week. I was hoping to postpone the meds until after school gets out in the middle of May, but with the way I'm feeling now, that's just not possible. This will be my second time to do IVs on my own without constant parental assistance. I know I can administer the medicines no problem and that I'll be fine remembering my IV schedule. However, it's frustrating that I'm needing to deal with illness now. CF takes up so much of my time, energy, and conversations already, so the last thing I want to do at the end of my sophomore year at Baylor is to have to think about this disease. I want to spend time with friends I won't see for three months. I want to be able to stay up late talking with people. I want to keep making excellent grades in all my classes. I want to enjoy every second of life God has given me. When I'm so exhausted and breathless, it's hard to do all these things.

No one said life would be easy. Thankfully, I serve a God who is completely Sovereign and is working all things for His glory and my good. Even when I don't understand what's going on in my life, I trust Him. So, in this bout of illness, I will lean on the Lord to provide me strength. I will pray for endurance to fight. I will rest in His will and find peace in His presence.


  1. you're an amazing writer! SO glad that you are seeing God and his providence throughout a tough season- and that you love to blog too!


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