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Keep my eyes above the waves

Ever since last Thursday, I feel like I've taken a beating. Let me give you a short run down of my week...

I got a parking ticket last Thursday bcause my handicap placard wasn't in the correct position (even though it was clearly visible and was in an appropriate position).
I got a cold and have been feeling grossly congested.
My phone has been broken. First the texting wouldn't work; then when the texting was fixed, I couldn't make or receive any phone calls. If you know me at all, you know I know nothing about technology and just need it to work. 
It's been ridiculously cold and dreary outside--I don't enjoy the cold. 
I'm overwhelmed with school work, planning different things, and life in general. 
I haven't gotten much sleep in the past week, and I do NOT do well without rest.
I found out my dog had a tumor on Friday that, if not taken care of quickly, she would die from it. She had surgery on Wednesday and was expected to recover without a problem, but she died unexpectedly in surgery.

That's really just the tip of the iceberg. I think I've cried more times in the past week than I have in a very long time. This week has broken me. I've been knocked to my knees and blown to the ground. Literally, I don't know what to do with the past 7 days. The song, "Oceans" by Hillsong has been my go-to. I can't count the number of times I've listened to it. One of my favorite lines of the whole song is, "You've never failed, and You won't stop now." How comforting is that! My God is always faithful. He will never ever EVER fail me. He knows my heart and my future. Even when I'm crushed, lost, overwhelmed, and feeling darkness press around me, my soul will rest in my Father. He alone is good. He alone is sovereign. He alone I can trust, even in a week like this one. In oceans deep my faith will stand.

Oceans

You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand

And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed and You won't start now

So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
[x6]

I will call upon Your Name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine


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