Blue-Eyed Breather

It's National Eating Disorders Awareness week. The number of people I know who have struggled with an eating disorders or with shutting out trigger thoughts that could lead to an eating disorder is astounding, especially since coming to college. Freshman year, many of my newfound college friends stressed about gaining weight and about trying to get the "perfect" body. if I'm going to be completely honest, I got caught up in the talk of the freshman 15 myself. No, I never tried to restrict my calorie intake, I never over-exercised, and I never skipped any meals, but I was consciously aware of all of the negative body image bashing and the fact that not gaining 15 pounds your freshman year of college is a challenge only the most disciplined and determined people can accept. Although I didn't try to lose weight, I can't say I was too upset when I saw the numbers on the scale remain stable, even though at the time I was dangerously underweight and knew that I NEED...

Ever since last Thursday, I feel like I've taken a beating. Let me give you a short run down of my week... I got a parking ticket last Thursday bcause my handicap placard wasn't in the correct position (even though it was clearly visible and was in an appropriate position). I got a cold and have been feeling grossly congested. My phone has been broken. First the texting wouldn't work; then when the texting was fixed, I couldn't make or receive any phone calls. If you know me at all, you know I know nothing about technology and just need it to work.  It's been ridiculously cold and dreary outside--I don't enjoy the cold.  I'm overwhelmed with school work, planning different things, and life in general.  I haven't gotten much sleep in the past week, and I do NOT do well without rest. I found out my dog had a tumor on Friday that, if not taken care of quickly, she would die from it. She had surgery on Wednesday and was expected to recover without a problem,...

I had a CF check up today to make sure I'm recovering nicely from my disastrous Christmas break. And guess what?! My pulmonary function test result was 2.0 liters (65% lung capacity). That's the first time my PFTs have been that high since October of 2012! I know that PFTs are just a number and that they don't completely define how my health is doing, but boy does it feel good to see that 65% again.  On a related note, my CF doctor told me today that I'm a superstar, and my picture should go on the clinic's wall because I am so on top of my health. I have always been compliant with my treatments and therapies, which is why I have stayed relatively stable the past 21 years. I know that even when I am compliant, I don't have full control over my health; I could be doing everything I'm supposed to and still decline in lung function. However, I do not understand why or how some people with CF seem to just ignore their disease and refuse to do treatments and take...

Let me fill you in on a little personality trait of mine--I'm type A to the extreme. I despise wasting time, I can't stand incompetence, I'm a very hard worker and have been described as a "perfectionist" multiple times, I find it difficult to relax, especially when I have deadlines hanging over my head, and, well, you get the gist. (If you want to see if you're type A, the huffington post put out an article. Here's the link: http://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/4549312).  Anyway, there are definitely plenty of positive things that come from being a type A person, but there's one major downfall. I have a very difficult time being still in the Lord's presence and following His leading. Actually, I typically say that I'm surrendering my everything to God, but when He doesn't work fast enough or in the way I think he should, I take the reigns back (I know, it's problematic. I'm asking God to help me give up control of my life day by day!) I ...