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Wind and Humility

What a beautiful week it's been! The sun has been shining, the temperature had been perfect, and there's a certain feeling of renewed life in the air. Of course, the cold will come back for a little while soon. It is January, after all. However, right now, I'm loving spending time outside with my God, enjoying His beautiful creation. I think one of my favorite things about this time of year is the feeling of the wind blowing around me. It reminds me of my faith. I can feel the wind and see its effects, but I can't actually see the wind. Similarly, I can't physically see God with my eyes, yet I can feel His love through reading the words of Scripture, quiet times in nature, times of honesty and vulnerability in prayer, hugs and encouragement from friends and family, and deep inner peace. I see God move and see how He changes lives. The evidence of God is everywhere as is the evidence of the wind.

When I'm struggling with doubts or questions, I love going outside and praying among God's creation. Gusts of wind remind me of His faithfulness. It's almost as if God is wrapping me up with the wind in a huge bear hug, reminding me that He is present, even when I have no idea what is going on in my life. It's as if He's saying, " Trust me, Emily. I won't let you go. Trust me."

It's also very humbling to sit still and just be outside. Psalm 8:3-4 says, "When I consider your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars which you have set in place, what is mankind that you are mindful of them, human beings that you care for them?" It's so easy to get lost in ourselves and ignore God when we go about our busy lives without taking time to stop and recognize His presence. However, when you're outside, you realize how small and insignificant you really are. God is HUGE. The world He created is beautiful. Your life is just a tiny speck on God's timeline. Not to say that God doesn't care about your life--He cares deeply. But the world does not revolve around you. You truly begin to understand that when you spend time outdoors, being still in the quiet peace of the trees, sunshine, and brilliant sky. 

Go enjoy the outdoors sometime this week, if you can. Get lost in the creativity and majesty of God. I can promise with 90% certainty you won't regret it!

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